Kenny had his appointment with the urologist today. The dr. said it could be a number of things. He said if it is an infection, after the antibiotics it could take a few months for things to go back to normal. So, he wants us to wait two months, then go back for ANOTHER semen analysis. This was not the news that I wanted to hear. We want to have a baby so bad and it is VERY hard to wait when you want something so badly. Of course, I was devastated. It took all I had not to cry at work today.
After Kenny gave me the news, I felt horrible. It seems like all we get is bad news. I kept asking myself, "is the news ever going to get better". In the midst of feeling sorry for myself, I was looking out the window with the kids in my class. The weather matched my mood perfectly. It was raining, depressing, and bleak outside. We were talking about how yucky it looked outside when one of my kids out of the blue said, "after it rains you get to see a rainbow, remember!" Those words touched my heart. I felt it was God. I felt like he was saying to me, "just wait, things may seem bleak now, but I have wonderful, beautiful plans for you." So, for now we have to go through the storm for a few more months. But I know one day, not sure when, but one day we will have our rainbow.
